Story of Becoming

My Love For Technology

At the age of 12, my family got the first computer with internet and a CD-ROM. I loved it. The potential of instant communication with the whole world, learning new skills, creating things. I also discovered the darker corners. Both sides fascinated me.

I became a software engineer. By my 30s, I had what looked like the dream—working in downtown Vancouver, luxurious simple life, good money.

In 2014, I hit a wall. I realized I was trapped in a golden prison. From the outside, everything looked perfect. From the inside, I felt dead. No better than a Zombie.

I was spending 12-16 hours a day in front of screens. The sun was shining outside the window. Something in me that started in my childhood was dying. Nature was calling me to play.

Breaking Open

I started experimenting with plant medicine. They created a gap. A space where I could access parts of myself that had been completely blocked before. Parts that felt the heartbreak of how human beings relate to life and nature.

I could hear the voice of the Earth calling me forward.

But the plant medicine also became my escape. What started as exploration turned into a crippling addiction that lasted over 10 years. I couldn't keep living split anymore.

Hitting Rock Bottom

The moment I knew I had to choose a different path came after hitting rock bottom in every part of my life. My relationship with my partner, the mother of my three children, the place where we lived, the community of people around me. It all fell apart.

We had no place to park our mobile home. No money. No family living near us. No friends with capacity to support. No solid network. No village.

It was at this time when I discovered the world of StartOver.xyz, Possibility Management, and Rage Club. I learned new tools, and perspectives that empowered me to face my addiction, my stuckness, my fears, and my pain.

I started doing anger work. I discovered the 3-3-3 initiation. I began getting access to my feelings—not just thinking about them, analyzing them, or releasing them, but actually feeling them in my body. Things started changing. Slowly. Gradually. Steadily.

Who I Am Becoming

I'm rebuilding my life from the ground down and up. Down because that's where the roots grow. From the darkness, from the soil, from the depths of the Earth. I'm doing this with my family, my community, and my work.

I'm a gameworld builder. An inventor of new ways of relating. I'm a planetary guardian. I'm a father, a partner, and an artist who uses music, writing, and visuals to express myself, heal and invite others to walk their path.

Step by step, I'm shifting away from a paradigm of competition, division, scarcity, being right, and war.

I'm moving toward a paradigm of collaboration between Women and Men who have been authentically initiated into adulthood, taking responsibility, being in radical collaboration, intimacy, love, abundance, juiciness, aliveness, and high-level fun.